SPIRIT FAIR

In addition to having pictures of our auras taken at the spirit fair, Brenda and I sat in on another demonstration (Angel Messages) by medium Cyndy Green.  Fortunately I remembered to bring my Sony digital recorder because both Brenda and I received messages this time.  

As usual we are given slips of paper to write our "billets" (french for notes) to whoever we want to contact.  We are to write it in the form of a letter - dear whoever - first and last name; or dear spirit or guardian angel or spirit guide.  We can ask one or two questions, then we must sign our first and last name.  Then we fold the paper and hold it in both hands to impart our energy to the paper.  The notes are collected and given to Cyndy only after she has blindfolded herself.  

Before she puts on a large black blindfold, she tapes her eyes shut.  The basket of billets are put on the table in front of her and she will take one or two out and rub them in her hands and on her forehead and will continue to do this for the entire hour.  Her individual readings are usually short, just a minute or two.  Some are a little longer.  All the while I am trying to figure out if there is some way that she could be reading what is on those notes.


After about the first fifteen minutes Cyndy said her spirit guide (named Tidbit) showed her best friend from high school who was Brenda and then she saw a fish tank.  Brenda's last name is Frisch.
Then Cyndy said she saw her uncle Bill so she could have a Bill or William present - Brenda's father's name was Bill.  Brenda just wanted to know if her father was happy, but the message she got was rather unexpected.  Her father's message was that she didn't pray enough and he felt that he hadn't prayed enough.  This was perplexing to Brenda because her father was very devout and prayed every night and Brenda certainly had had enough in her life going on recently that she had been praying quite frequently (or so she thought).  We could only speculate that when we actually come face to face to God we will all probably feel like we should have prayed more.  


A few more readings, then it was my turn when Cyndy said she was "going back to another Sue, Suzanne, Suzette, that kind of name.  Someone in spirit . . . she's got babies, a baby like triplets, but three like that, but there are four or five."  When she mentioned babies I thought she was talking about someone else, but then she said "She says come here Muffin, Roxie . . .  Someone who has lots of babies, now these can be real babies, cat babies or dog babies.  She says tell her it's Judy and I've got them all . . .  They are all perfect and they are well taken care of."  I was floored.  I had asked my sister Judy if she had my dogs there, one's name was Miffy and another was Roxie.  After listening to the recording a couple of times I realized that when she was talking about triplets she could have been referring to three of my dogs who were Boxers, then Miffy was a Cocker Spaniel and Casey was a mutt.  So, as she said "three like that but there are four or five." 

Then Cyndy said "she says that they visit you and when your feet are down you can feel them when you think you have a bug or fly or an itch below your knee, it's them rubbing up against you.  You can feel them."  Wow.  Now every time I have any little itch I will wonder if it's one of my dead dogs.

When a reading is this perfect you have to wonder if there was some trick here because it was just too good to be true.  Cyndy is having another demonstration on June 2 and this time I am going to really observe and photograph her taping her eyes and watching her closely to see if she could somehow be reading any of the notes.  On Youtube there are videos of her and there is one that shows her taping her eyes before the blindfold - http://youtube.com/watch?v=Cc6-8KujWfU   There are other videos of her if you go to Youtube and search the site for Cyndy Angel Messages.  I will also ask a question that has an answer that she can't get by reading the billet.  With the question I have in mind if she answers with a name like she will need to, then I will believe that she doesn't read the notes.

Another thing I learned after these readings and listening to the recording is that sometimes we will hear things that are not said.  For example, Brenda thought that Cyndy had said her father's initials (B.J.) - she swore up and down that she had heard them, but I didn't.  So after listening to the recording Brenda realized that Cyndy had not mentioned the initials.  For some reason I had thought Cyndy had said something about babies being in a stroller, but once again that was incorrect.  Our minds were probably trying to process the information and maybe filled in the blanks with what we expected to try to make sense of the information that was given to us.  Maybe this is why eye witness testimony is many times deemed unreliable.  Just one more reason why it is so important to ALWAYS record any session with a medium and to listen to it a couple of times later.

BLOGTALK RADIO

After listening to a reading by Brandie Chrisman on Blogtalk radio I found her website and made an appointment for Monday.  She lives about 30 minutes from my house and she charges $50 for 30 minutes and $100 for an hour.  I filled out a form on her website and about an hour later received a call from her assistant who scheduled the appointment.  (Must be doing well if she can hire an assistant!).  As it turned out, the $100 was a bargain for the numerous validations I received from Brandie.  It was an incredible experience and I plan to go back to her. 

If you have never head of Blogtalk radio (www.blogtalkradio.com)  I recommend that you take a look and see what it has to offer.  Anyone can host their own radio show and there are a wide variety of topics to choose from, and quite a bit for those interested in paranormal or spiritual topics.  I stumbled upon it when I was searching online for the next medium I wanted to see.  One of the things that Bob Olsen (www.bestpsychicdirectory.com and www.bestpsychicmedium.com)  recommends that you look for in a psychic is that they will go public, like in psychic fairs or blog talk radio.  It shows that they have more confidence in their abilities.  Another medium I hope to see has her own show on Blogtalk radio and hopefully I will have time to listen to a couple of her shows.

PSYCHIC MEDIUM JUSTIN

Finally, for the first time in my life I had a reading with a psychic medium.  Naturally I had hoped and prayed for a dramatic, detailed and accurate reading with specific names, dates and certain events in my life.  Not surprisingly, I guess, that was not to be.  I didn't think it was a total waste of time, however, because I could relate to some of the things he told me he was seeing.  Whether or not the information from actually communicating with those who have passed on or his own insight and intuition I will never know for certain.  But it is fun to speculate!

Justin is a very personable, down to earth, 30 something man of Italian heritage.  He is very easy going and immediately put me at ease.  The reading was conducted at his home where I met his wife and outgoing five year old son.  We sat in the kitchen for the reading which added to the relaxed atmosphere.  Justin explained to me that he gets messages mainly by being shown pictures, like a psychic pictionary.  He meditates before the reading asking those who have passed over to use parts of his life, if they so desire, to help him relate to what message they are trying to communicate.  He has been giving readings for ten years now and doesn't really advertise except for his website.  At $40 a hour he is the most reasonably priced medium I have found.  He lives in a lovely home with a pool so obviously he is employed elsewhere.  If someone needs a reading but cannot afford it, he will do it for free. (I haven't found anyone else who will do that yet.)

Before channeling the spirits, Justin began by giving me an Angel card reading.  I had never heard of Angel cards, but apparently they are a positive alternative to Tarot cards - there is nothing negative in them.  The reading from the cards was basically general and fairly accurate but things that could be applied to most mothers, so it would be difficult to say that it was psychic rather than intuition.  The main purpose of the Angel card reading is to set the stage, more or less, and to help open up a positive channel.


As he began to channel, Justin said there were several spirits present; an older male and another male and one female.  Immediately he was shown the letter J - - the letter that my sister's name begins with and who I most wanted to hear from.  I asked if it was for a male or female and Justin didn't know, all he saw was the older male acknowledging the letter J.  (I was being careful not to give much information.)  Immediately he was shown a motorcycle - which totally confused me.  I asked if it related to the J name and told him I didn't know of anyone who had passed with a motorcycle. 

[I do have a cousin, who at age 73 bought his first motorcycle and is extremely proud of it; as evidenced by his photo taken with it by a professional photographer and posted on facebook as his profile photo.  I wondered later if perhaps it was my father coming through and acknowledging that I had visited this cousin after not seeing him for fifty years.  My sister with the J name and I had talked for years about visiting this cousin.  Finally, a couple of years after my sister's death I decided to drive the 600 miles and see him.  As far as I know he is still living, at least he was a couple of months ago . . . I guess I'd better check.]

The older male presence was pointing from himself then to his side which indicated that someone was named after him.  [That would be my brother.]  Justin asked if this male had cancer [yes] and mentioned a cancer scare [maybe my brother who had thyroid cancer].  The presence was showing a white cake, which is supposed to acknowledge a birthday or anniversary within a month [my wedding anniversary is in seven weeks].  Then, out of the blue, Justin is shown a Lexus.  I had no idea what that meant nor did I know anyone who had one.  He also is shown a plane going from "here to here" - back and forth.  [I do travel a lot.]

Justin is then shown a child that is moved around a lot, which made the child feel disconnected.  I told him that made sense.  He saw that I had worked with the child.  Then the presence switches gears and acknowledges the cook [could be my mother in law or son in law].  Again, Justin saw the the male presence was with a female and two other males.  Then Justin states that they make him feel like I've been the glue that holds the family together and no one acknowledges it.  One thing was clear to Justin, he saw me going from here to there problem solving and correcting and "stuffing it down." [Very accurate for me at times or the skeptic could say that was a typical mother.]


[I then told him the child that who is moved around a lot would be my youngest daughter who had a drug problem.  We had sent her east to a rehab in Tennessee, then home where she relapsed a few months later, after which we sent her west to a half way house in Arizona and she has moved several different times while there.   The plane Justin sees going back and forth is probably me going back and forth to  Phoenix  from Oklahoma over the last three years. (Thanks to Southwest Rapid Rewards.)  In fact, I had only been back from Phoenix a couple of weeks at the time of the reading and in ten days I am going to Washington D.C. with a couple of friends, so that is pretty much back and forth over the country.]

Randomly, Justin was shown a teddy bear and wanted to know if that was significant in any way.  I said no.  Then he mentioned the 16th, which he said could be an age or date. [At the time I thought it was my dad's birthday, but I was mistaken.  Instead I realized later that on April 16th I will be in New York City for the first time in my life with my two best friends for the first time in their lives.  A very special day for us indeed!]

Then finally the woman presence presents herself strong [like I had asked my sister to].  She appeared to be the cook [sounds more like my mother in law] and was a stern disciplinarian [definitely not my sister].   But, then Justin says she is referencing "eyes" and asked if she had a problem with her eyes.  I told him there was no problem with her eyes but that did make sense to me.

[I did not tell Justin until later that before coming to the reading I had asked my sister to come through with something specific and that she could refer to our last trip together when we went through several states - Illinois, Indiana and Iowa.  I told her the medium worked by seeing pictures and she could show him eyes for the letter I, if she couldn't get across the specific states.]


At this point Justin tells me that he cant make much of anything out.  He said "it's like they don't want to talk to me.  Like they are very private."  He had difficulty getting anything for the rest of the reading, but he did come up with a little more.

Some random things:  A Vietnam vet [maybe an old boyfriend who may or may not have survived Vietnam.]  Who is the M name and not connected to the vet and who has allergies really bad [I had no clue. My maiden names starts with M and my paternal grandfather had severe allergies, but Justin thought it was a first name.]

He is shown a house with a wooden fence and tree in front with a blue buick (older, big tank of a car) in a suburban neighborhood.  A tire swing.   [No clue.] 

Then he gets a bit more accurate:  I was asked who is the scrapper - the fiesty one who would fight, the R name is coming through.  I responded that my husband has a name that begins with R.  Justin asked if he had a short fuse with we first met and I mellowed him out.  [More or less, took many years.]  I told Justin that my husband wrestled in high school and retired undefeated and he thought that qualified as a scrapper.  [I didn't tell him that my husband won a gold medal in the Mexican Olympics in 1968.  Who knew Mexico had Olympics?]

Other random images were:

 A little dog, a brown lab. [My brother in law recently lost a Jack Russell Terrier and four or five years ago lost a chocolate lab.]

The 12th (day or month) - I told him my birthday and my sister's birthday were in December (as were my mother's and her mother, and a niece). 

He saw the teddy bear again and I asked what color it was and he responded that it was just an ordinary brown teddy bear. 

He was shown a pair of wings - not a bird - just the wings that popped out of a tattoo.  [My youngest has wing jewelry and clothes with wings on them and wants a bird tattoo.  I better ask her if she ever got it.]

A Menorah and Christmas tree were shown together.  [My husband is catholic and his best friend is Jewish.  Lately they have been meeting for dinner once a week after work.]

Who passed in a car accident or impact - some sort of trauma.  [No clue.]


He is shown the color purple. [Means nothing to me.]

He sees Cat Kora (?) from Iron Chef.  [I like the food network but never watch Iron Chef.] 


Last of all, he asked me "who is Phil?"  I told him I didn't know anyone named Phil.  


As Justin walked me to my car he apologized for not being able to give me a more accurate reading.  He said he had this problem just a few other times, when the other side did not particularly want to communicate with him.  I assured him that there were some things that I thought were specific and I had enjoyed the reading anyway.  He asked me to let him know if I remember something that would make more sense out of some other things in the reading and I agreed to let him know.


The most accurate parts of the reading for me would be his vision of the child being moved from here to there.  Justin told me later that the reason he got that was because he was shown a scene from his life; when he was five and living in New York,  he was taken out of school by a social worker and taken to a foster home.  He was being taken away from his mother because of her drug problem.  It makes sense to me that this would be something that my father -or any other relative - would bring up.

Then the letters J and R definatly had meaning.  But were they good guesses from his subconscious or was he actually receiving visions of letters from my deceased loved ones?  Seeing a plane going from here to there was sort of specific as was the 16th.  Connecting the letter R with the scrappy one was pretty good . . .

And then there was the reference to the eyes, which to me were specific, although to a skeptic it might not be.


I am a believer and a skeptic . . .

FINDING A PSYCHIC MEDIUM

For years I have wanted to consult a psychic medium. I've watched countless episodes of John Edward's Cross Country and Psychic Detectives, read a few books, and still I am not entirely convinced there are people who can actually communicate with the dead.  I doubt because it seems too good to be true and the only way to know for sure is to have a reading from someone claiming to be a psychic medium that gives me information that he or she could not possibly know, like the weird name of my grandmother.  (No one could ever guess that one.) 

Last year I attended a show of a well know psychic medium, Lisa Williams.  I had been impressed with her show on Lifetime, unfortunately I was not as impressed when I saw her in person.  How did I know whether or not the people she read for in the audience were working for her?  And, unlike her television shows, she did not come up with a specific name or details of an event that could be specific for just one person. Nor did she reduce anyone to tears. The only specific information she gave was a number, which turned out to be the number of a football jersey belonging to a young man who had passed.  Not bad, but not enough for me.

I have decided not to put it off any longer -  I will make an appointment with a psychic medium.   Actually, not just one, I want to go to as many as I can afford and my goal is to see two or three a month so I can compare readings.  I will start with a couple in town then go to neighboring states.  When I visit my daughter in Arizona I will go to one or two there and anytime I go on vacation I will try to see one.  I'm going to Washington D.C. in a few weeks so I am going to try to find someone reasonably close to where I am staying.  My hope is that someday I will find someone who will really be able to contact those I've loved and lost.

To avoid any possibility of anyone being able to retrieve information about me online I will not use my real name - I am going to use my maiden name so if anyone wanted to google me they would not find out a thing. (I've been married over 30 years.) If they were to google my maiden name they would discover that one woman is incarcerated and there is a petition going around to keep her in prison; another is a dermatologist and then there are several links to several different Facebook pages. That's random enough.  I will always use my cell phone since it will come up on caller ID as "unknown."  


The next step was to find someone to go to which took me almost a week.  After searching on the internet I discovered a website that was a good resource for finding psychics listed by state, www.bestpsychicdirectory.com is where I found the first medium to start with. This website was started by Bob Olsen, a licensed P.I. with a degree in criminology. He went on his own search for answers and after going to probably over 100 psychic mediums he has a list of the ones he thought were the best. The majority of those he had readings with are located in the east, with a few in Texas.  He had not seen anyone in Oklahoma.  Another of his websites is www.bestpsychicmediums.com where he has more detailed information about his readings with his favorite psychic mediums.  If you live in the eastern United States you will have more to choose from.

My first appointment will be with Justin.  I sent him an email expressing my interest and inquiring about his rates.  He wrote back a couple of days later and said he doesn't have a set price, just takes donations because he knows how hard it is for most people in this economy to work a psychic into their budget.  He is available for readings weekdays after 4:00 and weekends after 2:00.  That works for me, so I called him today but got his voice mail. I left a message and my cell number and asked that he call back.  I should be able to see him this week.


Tomorrow I am going to buy a digital voice recorder to record each reading. At middle age my short term memory sucks so a recorder is essential.  I know nothing about them so I looked at Best Buy online and found a couple that  thankfully were not expensive - about $45 and $65.  I will splurge on the $65 one.

UPDATE - Well it's two years later and I have learned some things about mediums.  First is that the mediums didn't have to give me anyone's name for me to be convinced of who they were describing.  Second is that sometimes a comment won't mean anything to me during a reading, but sometime later when listening to a recording of the reading the light will go on in the attic and I will have an OMG moment.  And sometimes even the best mediums can't get a link or lose it sooner than you would like.  Most importantly, however, is I have learned that somehow, some people can connect with a deceased loved one or make a connection with something that provides personal information about my family members that they have no way of knowing.  When visiting mediums I used my maiden name that I have not used in 35 years, and I paid in cash.

Posts for the best readings I have had are on 4/12/11, 5/30/11, 7/15/11, 11/8/11 and 10/25/12.